In my own selfish way

In my own selfish way on January 25, 2010 at 09:29 AM |

Since when was the last time I wrote something? It was not my intention to be in hiatus for a while but I just didn't find the right things to say. I mean, what am I going to blog? This blog is always about me, about how I feel, about the things I have watched, about the places I went to. Egocentric, I know. Or maybe humans as we are, we are bound to be SELFISH.

Rather than being compassionate, being sensitive with the needs of others, we feel that there is one person who needs the most, OURSELVES. I am not speaking for myself alone, but isn't it true that when someone asks for help, we questioned ourselves, "Is this person worthy of my help? Is he/she going to help me back? Or will there be people who will be willing to help me in my misfortune?" Or am I the only selfish being ever born in this planet?

The truth is, I am tired. I am tired of helping people who don't even know they need help. I am tired of helping people who don't want to help themselves.


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24 on January 7, 2010 at 07:27 PM |

 

"Growing old is not about aging, it's about getting ready to face any obstacles that life may bring."


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Birthday wishlist

Birthday wishlist on January 4, 2010 at 10:56 PM |

I am not asking, I am just wishing that I could get these on my birthday. From: Merlyn, To Magic. Maybe a gift for myself? I owe it to myself. Been working hard and should deserve the best.

1.Bible
2.By the River Piedra, I sat down and wept
3.The Prophet by Khalil Gibran

I am a simple person with simple wants and needs. Family. Friends. They are my happiness.


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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas on December 25, 2009 at 09:00 PM |

This Christmas,

I only wish for good health. For myself and for all my loved ones.

Good company. People who will always be my umbrella when the rain will pour so hard. People who will laugh and cry with me.

Happiness and harmony for my family.

 


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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas on December 25, 2009 at 12:39 AM |

It's Christmas, but I am taking calls. It's Christmas but I am not home. It's Christmas but I am sad.


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Christmas means fun

Christmas means fun on December 23, 2009 at 07:18 AM |


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Time for fun

Time for fun on December 20, 2009 at 01:22 AM |


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Update 5

Update 5 on December 17, 2009 at 01:49 AM |

I am typing my thoughts away since there are no callers yet. They must have been busy preparing stuff for Christmas. I am typing my thoughts away while singing Michael Bublé's Everything. When will I get to have everything? Is everything's going to be enough? For the nth time I have questioned myself on why do I feel so empty when my life has been so exciting, so challenging, so overwhelming?

And for Pete's sake it's Christmas. Why am I talking like this? I don't need abundance. I don't need much to be happy. Right?

 


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Update 4

Update 4 on December 13, 2009 at 02:45 AM |

Who doesn't want to be put on pedestal? Me? Who was I kidding? I feel like a woman again, with the same needs of a woman, to be loved and cared. It's amazing that someone has sufficed this need yet you have no idea whether you have to hold on to this or not. But he does make me feel good. Whether he is aware or not. I don't really care. It just makes me kind of nervous, though, that someone gives me attention because I am just a girl and I easily fall at any kind of trap. I should be careful. I just can't risk my heart and my precious emotions.

Like any other girl, my expertise is to assume. To assume and anticipate things to happen. Like any other girl, I am good at giving meaning to something that is not really supposed to be regarded. It always brings catastrophe. Usually a devastating one. Now I just hope and pray that our friendship will not be put to risk.

He is a friend, with so much kindness and sweetness. Ask him anything you want and he'll give it to you, ice cream, shrimps, FOOD! and most especially his smiles, that could possibly break a shackle (exaggeration intended). He is a friend, and I should not give any malice to anything that he does, but I did. My mistake, I know.

Like all other things, this dream has to end too. I shall kiss this dream goodbye. And welcome a new one.


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