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Sweet escape

Sweet escape on November 3, 2009 at 06:01 PM |

I haven't been myself lately and been slacking off in everything I do. I have lost the vibe in giving attention to my  life. I have done things, I shouldn't be doing. I took risks because they said "life is a risk". I have waited for something that doesn't even exist because I always believe that "patience is a virtue". I have waited, yet it never happened. I have waited, and waited for more. I have waited but I can't deal the pain anymore. Now it's time to accept that things aren't exactly what they are. They may look so simple but it can be just a facade. Or worst than that, it can be a trap. The next thing you know, you are already shackled and can no longer escape.

Now all I want is a sweet escape.

I am making my own mess. I am making my own misery. And I need a fuckload of strength to move on. I can't wait forever. I am only human. I get tired and most of all I am also vulnerable to pain.

Ain't life a bitch?

Ain't life a bitch? on October 26, 2009 at 11:08 PM |

Moving on

Moving on on October 17, 2009 at 06:54 PM |

I am in the most depressed moment in my life, where everything seemed to be so out of my senses. Maybe life is about moving on. Then I should start striding my feet again.

Waiting still

Waiting still on October 16, 2009 at 02:47 PM |

Have you ever had to love someone
That just don't feel the same?
Tryin' to make somebody care for you
The way I do
Is like tryin' to catch the rain.
And if love is really forever,
I'm a winner at a losin' game.

Am I close to finding that "someone"?

Me in the four corners in my room

Me in the four corners in my room on October 14, 2009 at 02:57 AM |

It's raining again, and days like this brought coldness inside. No matter how I covered myself with blankets, I still feel it. It's getting cold. Or is it just hard to accept the fact that I am really alone in this life? I have friends. Yes. I have family. Yes. I have God who never fails me. But why do I feel so miserable every time He gives me struggles and overcome them all? When will it stop? I wish to be in contact with Him, but is there any other way rather than fighting what I have already fought for so long? I do have a lot of questions. But I haven't really asked myself when will I stop complaining.

In days like this, I envied those people who have someone to be held on tightly. Yes, I am alone and that is why I feel sad every time the rain pours down, because I never am happy and I never am satisfied with my life and I feel alone and all I could think of is myself. Am I doomed to live my life alone? Am I doomed to traverse the road less traveled by?

In days like this, I remembered you. But are you really true or are you just a lie I made to satisfy myself. I paced back and forth, checked my phone for messages and calls, only to find nothing. Am I so pathetic?

Good days aren't over yet

Good days aren't over yet on October 11, 2009 at 03:26 PM |

For the love of thyself. Ha ha ha.

Abuse of innocence

Abuse of innocence on October 9, 2009 at 08:57 PM |

Funny how people make a living by fooling some innocent people like myself. My friend and I went to a miraculous church in Opon, Lapu-Lapu City to offer prayers for my Dad and for everyone else. We were just surprised how three women sauntered infront of us and volunteered to do the prayers for us through a dance ritual. They gave us candles and scapular medal and they let us pay an amount you can never imagine. Were they doing it for devotion? Because for me, it sounded like they were making it a "business".

And so we went home feeling robbed. Wondered if God hear our prayers.

Food and Friends

Food and Friends on October 8, 2009 at 06:02 PM |

Celebrating Mark's Birthday @ La Maison.

The food was great. Thanks to Mark and Janet for their treat. Posting these pictures makes me salivate. Yumyum.

3 more days

3 more days on October 8, 2009 at 02:44 AM |

How can you trust someone you barely know? How can your heart beats so fast when he's not even near you? How can you smile when he says thing he doesn't even mean? How can you fall in love to someone who only exist in your dreams?

Shall I expect anything? I don't know.

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